I used to write a lot.

And it looks like I haven't done it in blog form for about 10 years or so.

Writing has changed from a (not) journal to blog, to msn, to txt, to messenger, to kik, to pof, to txt and now blog again only to drop this for a good 10 years more.

But I think I have some things to say here soon.  And some of them are kind of dark.

But I'm not a dark person by nature so that will make this an interesting exercise for the psychiatrists of the world to study.

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So what's the freefall?  I guess this will come from the state where you get in...where you come from...  And you reflect.  And you try to understand where you're at.  And where you're going.  And you beat yourself up about where you thought you should have been by this point.  And who's to blame.  But it's more about why you're there.  What caused it.  Why where you think you should have been and what brought you to...here.  That's a confused way of saying it.  I won't delete it though.  It'll get better the more I write.

A freefall state assumes you're heading towards rock bottom.  By that, rock bottom can mean very different things to very different people.  I suppose I'm still trying to think of what rock bottom means to me.  And that is a lie.  I know what rock bottom is for me.  I'm just not ready to say.  Both whether I've hit it or heading towards it.

2017 has truly been a new start for this ride though and it's been good.  Fuck resolutions.  These are solutions.  And I've stuck to some of them.  And failed in others.  But haven't given up.  I'll be forced into more.  And I'll take those on with a big fuck you to the negs.  

Drop mic on that for now.

Song: Light as a Feather - Evening Hymns

http://www.eveninghymns.com/quiet-energies/